I tend to be such a pessimistic, bitter, cynical...
Laura comes home soon.
She went to go register for classes, she’s been gone for two days. I’m really pathetic when it comes to her moving out. I’ve posted about this a million times. But her graduation is in two weeks. I’m going to be all alone because she’s moving out. I’ve never been an only child before. I’m about to start crying. My eldest sister I never see. My...
I’m the one that has to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my...– Jimi Hendrix (via petuniababy)
I mean yea, I miss talking to you, but still seeing your name makes me nervous and sick.
Homework now for the rest of my damn week. Kbye.
TMI about David.
Apparently David is known for having a big dick. I mean, really big. I went up to Angel today in second block, I love Angel to death you don’t even understand, I’m not kidding, she means the world to me, just so you know. And I go up to her and say, “Hey, I have a new guy, kind of…” And she goes, “Ooh! Who?!” and I go, “Do you know David...
My sister is a Batman fanatic. I’m not kidding. You can ask her anything you want about it, she’ll know the answer. She has Batman shirts, Batman backpacks, and other miscellaneous Batman paraphernalia. She’s seen every single Batman movie ever made, and has seen many of the cartoon episodes, and read the stories/comics. I am a Green Lantern fanatic. I know the Green...
I hate you.
No, really. I hate you.
I feel like I’m lying to you every time I smile at you.
The house is so quiet and lifeless without my...
Is this what it’s gonna be like all next year? Because if so then that’s not gonna work, I’m gonna have to move in with someone. I don’t like this.
Sometimes I send Matt psychotic messages/texts...
Just harassing Matt about what my birfday present...
Is it pretty?! ?! ?! ?! Is it big or little? DOES IT HAVE WINGS?! SAY YES. SAY IT HAS WINGS. Matt said shut up. <3
My biology book has gross pictures of rashes and...
It really doesn’t encourage me to do my homework at all.
I honestly don’t think guys have the right to be either pro-life or pro-choice. It’s not your body. It’s not your issue.
David and I are planning our future together.
I don’t think that’s weird. Our marriage will be perfect, no worries <3. Nigga wants two or three kids though. “Just something for you to keep in mind <3.” Not with me haha, I don’t have to keep shit in mind.
I'm home from Davvify's.
I was exhausted while I was there, but I’m a little more awake now. We watched The Dark Night and played Black Ops lol. I think I’m gonna put on a movie and go to bed though, I’ve been tired for days and I neeeeeed to do my homework tomorrow. However, I’m looking forward to sleeping in lol. Goodnight <3
Getting ready to go to David's now c:
I have no clothes to wear, because Laura forgot to start a load of laundry for me while I was in the shower so that they’d be done on time, so I’m sitting here in a towel patiently waiting, listening to Say Anything. You know. Anyway, I’ll be there for much of the evening. Remind me to do homework tomorrow? Kthanks. <3
David is frustrating me.
I’m trying to negotiate seeing him tomorrow, so that way, he can do his little redneck mudslinging thing today without me, and I can… take a bubble bath c:
I don’t understand this. It happens a lot, but it didn’t when I was on antidepressants. I get scared. Really, really scared, sometimes. And it’s happening right now. I’m terrified of nothing right now. And David stopped texting me and I don’t like it, and I don’t want to be alone, I hate being alone. And I’m just really, really scared.
Eventful, successful shopping day. Brb crying at...
Chip's house burned down.
Nikki’s and Alex’s best friend, my neighbor, rented his garage to some guy Danny. The guy got Chip’s daughter addicted to drugs, so she’s now in rehab, and Chip went and evicted him, so apparently Danny shot someone, and then he burned the house down. Danny is damn lucky they caught him and put him in jail because Chip would legitimately kill him.
MY LIFE WINS IN THE MOST AWKWARD EVER CONTEST.
I just took a shower. It was nice, I got out all freshly shaved and soft and smelling yummy. I dried off my hair so it was all tousled and damp and pretty like wet hair is, and I was drying off my body. Normally, I close the shades in the bathroom when I shower. Today, I forgot. I knew my neighbors were outside doing yardwork, but since I normally close the shades I didn’t think anything of...
I know you’re broken. You can always change, though. You can become whole...– Davvify.
I can’t get that guy from my dream’s voice out of my head now. “Please don’t go. Please don’t leave me all alone.” I keep hearing that part over and over. It’s quite distressing.
David and I are dissecting my dream.
Davvify is dissecting my dream*. Apparently, the guy is my thoughts and feelings. He is the embodiment of my mind basically, according to David. He called him a “little boy,” and I had to explain to him that the guy was like nineteen lmao. He says the proof that it’s definitely me is that the guy said “People always leave,” And that’s something I say all the...
I keep having this dream.
Earlier, when I was passed out, I had a strange ass dream. I keep having REALLY weird dreams. I was walking down some hallway. When I fell asleep, it was storming really bad, and so it was storming in my dream too, I could hear thunder outside and rain was really loud on the roof of wherever I was, and it was kind of darkish in the hallway, like if you’re inside in the middle of the...
Okay I’m gonna cry now, I’m watching Grease and Jeff Conaway and gah. I can’t handle the sadness. </3 But John Travolta was a beeeyooteefull man. c: (So was Jeff Conaway, for that matter.)
Okay I'm back from being dead now.
No, really. I passed out on my floor for three hours and woke up dying of thirst and grogginess and soreness and now my head hurts.
emily god dammit stop leaving your tumblr on my macbook this is getting retarded hahahaha.i’m gonna start bombing your blog with transvestite animal porn and gloriously disgusting things if you can’t control your shit.i mean nigga the logout button is right there!! i love you and all but for cock’s sake i almost went 10 minutes without noticing(: ~matty p.s. now i will go...
The weather just went from fine and sunny to fucking hurricane status. And I’d know.
I have so many messages and so much to do and...
Seriously? I was fine. I was motherfucking fineeee. And then I lay down to go to sleep and my arm was under my pillow, and I was on my left side, so I didn’t think and I reached my right arm up and I ended up clasping my hands, and then my mind just freaked out. I started thinking, no, don’t do that, move your hand. So I moved my hand, but I had to move it so that there was nooo...
Oh shit. Oh SHITTTT.
Do NOT come up in here talking to me about your sex life in all this graphic detail! I know we’re friends but DAMN. What is wrong with people?! I have friends who will legitimately TEXT ME UP and be like, “Hey, I’m masturbating.” And I’m like WHAT THE FUCK! DON’T TELL ME THAT SHIT. Or, “So I’m having sex with this girl last night, and she’s...
I don’t know, I’m in love with you? Let’s have sex?...– —The things I say to James.
Okay my charger on my computer is broken, it won't...
And we all know that won’t happen. So I’ll buy a new one tomorrow. Or Saturday. I gotta go to Best Buy anyway, I never did about my phone. Okay, I’m thirsty. Goodnight.
Yea, but if I die today the last thing you...
I hate that.