March 2011
Eek. I just got a text about Taylor. I kind of...
February 2011
You see, I've got this problem.
It’s only been like two months. I haven’t exactly forgotten about Antonie. I remember how it feels to love him, I mean I haven’t stopped, I’ve just started to get my life back together. I’m scared of being with someone else and possibly feeling that again. Because I’ve only ever felt it with him.
I'm just saying, I'm not falling for it.
I know that I’m being tested by Alex coming back into my life, today of all days. And I’m not falling for it.
I needdd to get ready, or I'm gonna be late. As...
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I literally just threw up ten times. I think it’s from being exposed to too much light when I have such a bad migraine. And I have a migraine because I slept for maybe 45 minutes last night/this morning. But I don’t want to go in late/miss school, because I don’t want to stay home. Sigh.
I look at pictures of my brother when he was little and I remember how tired and worn he looks now. I mean yea, his life sucks, but at least he’s out.
I miss him so much. And I won’t see him for at least another year.
It’s weird, that someday I’ll be working for the military. Which is one of the forces that has taken so much away from me.
News from back home: Taylor got into a car...
I was happy. Just this afternoon. I was happy.
I'll just sit here and cry now.
I seriously hate living with my family. I thought they’d gotten over the way they used to be. (They have a really abusive past. My dad’s an alcoholic. And besides that they’re old and going out of their minds, and my sister has several complexes. My brother and other sister are moved out and long gone, not that my parents ever gave two fucks about them anyway. My parents tell me...
“Cream and silk as one
How I long to taste and touch
The moon watches us”
– I love this book.
“You have the fattest cat I’ve ever seen in my life. The first time I saw...”
– Something John (San Poff) said to Sarah. This is why I love him.
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So Dillon got offline. I guess I can go do mock...
But I don’t wanna D=.
And I can’t focus. And I’m spamming people’s dashes. So I’m just gonna make one giant readmore of my thoughts for now.
I keep remembering how it felt to lean back against your chest with your arms around me. And it’s killing any focus I have.
I don’t know which bill to write my essay on. And either way my thoughts aren’t...
"If it's of any consolation, I did picture you...
Lmao.
No one has ever been so right.
We’re talking. And we’re both waiting for the other to say it. We hint so, so hard. But Optimus Prime was right. (Yes, he was.)
The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how they love them while they’re alive.
Completely relevant. (It may not be love. But even so.)
Seriously, he makes me so happy that I could cry....
“No, it’s okay Dillon, you’re like a watered-down whore.”
"I'll be gone for quite some time. But I'll come...
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“I feel fat.”
Bullshittt. You have the sexiesttt bodyy.
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I miss...
The long conversations I used to have with Dillon. Until last night, he and I hadn’t had one of those since Shotwell— his Robotics and history teacher and my history teacher from last year, who will be it again next year— started picking on him. Shotwell’s a nice guy, but Idk. It’s not even that he wants to keep Dillon away from me in any way, I just think he...
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Strong arms and pecs on a guy are really all that matters body-wise.
In the words of Meredith, “We’re arm girls.” lmao.
No, seriously. Strong arms make my mouth water.
“YOU! SAM! SHANNON! Maybe Dillon and JD?!?!?!?!?!? My place, circle?!?!?!?!”
– YES, MARION. YES. I DON’T EVEN KNOW A SYNONYM FOR YES RIGHT NOW.
JUST YES. Next weekend come nowww please omggg.
Can I just sit here and listen to "I Don't Wanna...
It’s not as nice as when Dillon sings it in my ear, but it makes me smile like an idiot.
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Oh, another reason today's been great?
I went to Borders. They’re closing near my house (And Barnes and Noble is moving in… a sale and then a better store? Chyea.) and so everything was at leasttt 20% off. I got five books, and the movie Gremlins. Because I’m badass. And the guy who was ringing me up was sooo chill. He was adorable. I felt bad that he was getting laid off. But he let me keep a Borders shopping basket....
I am in such a good mood. You don't even...
I’ve run a million errands this weekend (I actually love running errands. Pointless driving and picking things up puts me in a great mood. I don’t know why.) especially yesterday, last night was amazing, I got my stitches out this morning, I’M NOT SORE AT ALL, I ran errands after my stitches, I have spiked kiwi juice, I’m gonna take a shower and then I’m gonna go...
Dear self,
You can go ahead and stop being all giddily happy now.
I’m sorry. Dillon always puts me in the best moods. But tonight was just ridiculously great. I miss him already.
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I just spent five hours dancing in five inch...
I may never move again. I remember, after the Snow Ball dance thing last year, I felt fine. And then I woke up the next morning and felt like I’d been hit by a semi-truck. Everything hurt. That’s how I feel NOW. Tomorrow’s gonna suck.
So first, Marion told me that she was getting a ride with Sam, her boyfriend, so I couldn’t walk in with her. But luck stayed with me all...
“Is it really a home if your loved ones are gone?”
– Diddy<3
Please can someone come and spoon with me?
crossdan:
liv has gone home, but can I be the big spoon?
I can’t go to his ask to tell him because tumblr’s mean, but this guy is adorable. No matter what he says. And being the little spoon is more fun =]
I went into the kitchen for a cookie. I left with...
And Todd wants me to go to that dance thing with him tonight. I feel like a little 12 yr old girl thinking about this lol. But still. Idk I might meet up with Todd there.
(History lesson: Todd and I dated earlier this year. I love him to death, you don’t even know, but I love him like a brother. I don’t see him as a boyfriend type person. But he’s been hitting on me more lately....
Today's going really well.
Last night I had a milkshake and watched Zombieland and part of Get Rich or Die Trying.
This morning, I woke up late, didn’t have to get blood work (although I have to get it tomorrow morning before I get my stitches out), ate eggs, went to work, chilled with Aaron for the first time in for-freaking-ever (but we had a virus scare where I called him a plague-ridden pig… Lmao.), left...
Aw. This is cute.
Ivan is a year below me. He’s good looking and all, and about my height, and he’s Asian.
He asked me to go with him to this school dance thing we have tonight.
Where I’m from, everyone goes to those things.
But I have to work, so I had to say no.
And I feel really bad.
But it was cute.
I still love this picture. But that's not the...
The point is that this is alllll I do nowadays. It’s not that that bothers me, I mean, that makes me happy. It just bothers me that it doesn’t bother me. If that makes sense.
Speaking of theatre, I’m about to go put stuff together for rehearsal on Monday. =p
I'm gonna trim my hair a bit.
Wow I’ve gotten busy as hell, and my blog has gotten empty/boring as hell.
My body cannot take this inactivity. I need to get...
I just got my passport redone. It took forever....
I then went to WaWa and my dad bought me a lemonade and Reese’s. So I’m in a good mood.
Lol I’m insulted though, I couldn’t sign my own damn passport because I’m not eighteen yet. So until I’m 23 I won’t have my own signature on my passport. Hurts, don’t it.
It is sooo windy right now. It's scaryy.
And so I said, "here's the difference between you...
All you do is work. I mean, yea, all I do is work, but I enjoy it. See, you’re scrambling to ensure a future for yourself. But unlike you, I’ve found a way to ensure that I have a future, while enjoying my life now. Because I’m sure you’ve heard those quotes all like, don’t waste today because you may not get to tomorrow. It’s kind of like that. But more. I...
I FINALLY MADE THE CONNECTION.
Jessica dated Stephen and cheated on him with Navar. Navar’s a dick. I saw Stephen today and remembered him and he remembered me. He’s really sweet. Caroline, AKA Little Whitehouse, Lexi and Ali’s little sister, is dating one of Jessica’s exes from last year. Today, as Stephen left, I asked why he wouldn’t hug Jessica and he wouldn’t tell me and I called out (he...
Five minutes till work...
I don’t wanna go I just got home I never get to relax ughhh =[
“Look, Shayne! It’s your Christmas present!”
– I gave Shayne a lime green light up bouncy ball.
Monsters Inc and bonding time with Jason? Yes,...
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And New Zealand still has 600+ people to find. I...
Drag racing Josh Brown made my day.
It all started when we were driving down Courthouse Rd. toward the light.
Me: Laura. It stinks. I can’t fucking breathe.
Laura: Josh needs to get his car fixed.
Me: Go around him.
So we go to the left lane and speed up. And we notice Josh speeding up.
Laura: What the fuck?? He’s speeding up! Jerk! Jackass! What the fuck!?
I look over, and Josh is smiling at me. and keeps...
And on that happy note.
I’m just upset.
First and foremost, I’m upset about the world. I hate that so many people are hurting, and there’s nothing we can do, really. As hard as we try, no matter how aware we are, we cannot directly get their dictator to stop killing them. The UN isn’t doing anything. It’s awful. I’m upset that things ever have to come to this. People should never let...
